smile

it really doesn't take much apparently, just take the time relax. Its better when your able to remember those conversations that made you laugh, smile, or opened your eyes to something you never saw before. I guess it helps when your IM conversations get saved automatically, [i don't know why it does that].

got the push, but afraid to fall
that's my vague post

history repeats itself

We all have those moments when we wish there was a second chance, an opportunity to roll back time, and rethink our actions. Yet, the more time you spend thinking about what you should have done, you forget that you have the opportunity to learn and rectify such actions. I struggle to find the grace to handle it. When you given everything you have or think you have...its sometimes not enough. My sacrifice seems so small next to HIS. But it is HIS sacrifice, that allows me to live, learn, pray. I pray more now than ever...because that all that i can do now. Everything is in your hands.

The edit:
Everything happens for a reason.
No reason to regret; must make the effort to try =D

from walls to doors

Time to change...
I needed to
Friends deserve more than i gave
when they're willing to give me everything,

even a push when i'll need it



Thanks again for listening...=D

wandering...

praying that it will get better...

i really don't know what better is. It might just be a selfish prayer, at the root of it, as much as i don't want it to be. Its hard to think about the fact that i haven't really changed or got any closer to some goal or aspiration. Sometimes, history is repeating itself, only difference now i know what not to do; instead i stand still and not try at all. Hiding is comfortable, i've got it down to a science...

words in a page, lyrics of a song...only makes the truth more apparent, despite the fact i wish to hide from it.

words spoken in a whisper...made vocal for my own sake...echoing within the walls i've built, making it that much harder to forget or let go.

i can only stand at a distance, willing to catch you when you fall...

praying that your someone will