sometime u just have to stop

All this running makes me tired, its when you stop and no one catches you that hurts. but that all depends if you running in the right direction. This IS my transition, one that's long overdue. Its only a "rat race" if you make it one...

...and with age comes wisdom...

Apparently being the alumni of any group, makes you "smarter" or "wiser" to the younger folk...I wish I had all the answers, or believed I am as wise or smart as you think I am. In any case, I know that all you graduating seniors will be ok...whether you are staying or going, working or schooling {is that even a word?} just use the gifts He's given you and you'll be fine...All the wisdom in the world can't measure to HIS and HIS love for you.

this is only a test

insight pt2

I've put myself in the same position...despite how hard I try not to.let go. Life can't be "what ifs" and "should haves". So cliche but true. The truth is I don't know why or when or how. You can't help the way you feel sometimes. If all i give is a smile, would i get one in return. I can't talk. If I tried harder, would you still be there. I've built so many walls to keep everything in, to keep myself from getting hurt. The emotions I have you don't see; the questions I ask because I don't know, but would like to

insight

sight is often taken for granted...

how do u feel when you see
that someone
a baby
friends
family




yourself

sometimes you feel like you don't measure up, or don't accept the credit that you deserve, if you look at yourself through HIS eyes, you wouldn't doubt, you wouldn't compare...you'd believe

there is a difference between not being boastful with the gifts you have been given, and denying that you have them

insight comes at different times and from different people...
it may take a long drive and someone to keep you awake to be aware of it

....

how are u?
....ok
what's new?
....nothing really

silence.

why is it so difficult to speak? despite the genuine feeling behind the questions, the answers aren't. i've always stood on my own, more like internalized everything. If i felt like letting go, HE will catch me...but i can't fall...i might have catch someone...or i think i do...i try to be the dependable one...its the one part of me that i don't want to lose, despite the trials it brings; but its brings joy too

how are u?
...actually, i'm....
what's new?
...a lot, do you have a minute...

time for me to speak.

part one of two