reminders

sometimes when you're cleaning, you happen to find something that stirs an memory and for the moment, any number of emotions could come about. for me, its wondering if i could've done something different, tried that much harder, but things happen for a reason...would i be in the same place in my life...am i supposed to be where i am now...trying to keep myself occupied with other things makes me think that im avoiding things or just THE thing. I say that im being selfish, but people say that i deserve to be happy too. The walls never really go away, but you find the people to help you break them.

i think that's enough for now.