....

how are u?
....ok
what's new?
....nothing really

silence.

why is it so difficult to speak? despite the genuine feeling behind the questions, the answers aren't. i've always stood on my own, more like internalized everything. If i felt like letting go, HE will catch me...but i can't fall...i might have catch someone...or i think i do...i try to be the dependable one...its the one part of me that i don't want to lose, despite the trials it brings; but its brings joy too

how are u?
...actually, i'm....
what's new?
...a lot, do you have a minute...

time for me to speak.