If I believed as much as people tell me, things might be different
If I could find solace in forgiving myself, the sitiuation would be different
If I wasn't scared of losing
I'd try

I'd put myself first and know I should at times
But my M.O.is something else

I said I wouldn't think about it
But it can't be avoided

I said I've let go
But I miss you

I said a lot or a lot of nothing

I'll stay where I am...